THIS
WEEK'S COLUMN is mostly a collection of confessions, observations,
quotes and memos originally written on scrap paper or in my wallet-sized
index-card notebook, the latter a thoughtful gift from my second wife
Adrienne, to whom again thanks.
But
before I share these always random, occasionally lewd and sometimes
humorous jottings, here as stark reminders of the time and place in
which we live (and therefore in fulfillment of OAN's
journalistic obligation) are links to a few stories that typify the
deteriorating human condition and the sorry state of our nation and our
world.
As
always in these darkest of years of our species' 200,000-year history,
the applicable acronym is SNAFU. A linguistic relic of World War Twice,
it stands for “Situation Normal, All Fucked Up.”
The
week's most unsurprising but nevertheless vital news was another study
that has confirmed the U.S. experiment in representative democracy is
dead – that we 99 Percenters are now the ever-more-enslaved subjects of
an increasingly tyrannical capitalist oligarchy. Meanwhile a separate
poll confirms we the people are moving ever closer to the flash-point of
rising up angry. Both reports were covered by Thom Hartmann in a single story.
I
did not have time to comment on Hartmann's work because my entire week
was consumed by first-of-the-month chores. With an automobile I'd have
accomplished these tasks in less than a single day. But because I no
longer have a car and am thereby dependent on the “welfare” provided by mass transit, what formerly took me about five hours by automobile now takes five days by bus.
The methodical reduction of mass transit
in the Puget Sound region and elsewhere throughout the United States
exemplifies the increasingly obvious refusal of the One Percent to
attempt even minimal amelioration of terminal climate change – another factor in the 99 Percent's increasing rebelliousness.
Meanwhile the climate disasters described by Amy Goodman's too-cautious academic guests give us additional glimpses of the death-dealing future our species will probably not survive. Such is capitalism's deadly curse upon ourselves, our descendants and our planet.
How the Ruling Class will respond if we dare foment effective resistance is already well known, exemplified not just by the crushing of the Occupy Movement, but by the extermination-and-disruption campaign with which local cops and federal secret police destroyed the Black Panthers during the 1960s and 1970s.
Obviously the de facto Fourth Reich is nothing new.
As Bill Quigley reports for Reader Supported News,
already “2.2 million people are in our nation’s jails and prisons and
another 4.5 million people are on probation or parole in the US,
totaling 6.8 million people, one in every 35 adults. We are far and away
the world leader in putting our own people in jail. Most of the people
inside are poor and black. Here are 40 reasons why.”
Lastly,
there's One Percent's Final Solution, “we had to destroy the village to
save it.” First applied in Vietnam, the destruction-is-salvation
approach now jeopardizing us globally, as events in Ukraine take another step toward World War III: “we had to destroy the planet to save it.”
(Yes,
dear readers, just as you might have surmised, the doctrine of
destruction as salvation is derived from the dogmas of Abrahamic
religion. Note the Biblical flood, the fates of Sodom and Gomorrah, and
most especially the nauseating rationale for burning heretics at the stake.)
The only remaining question is when will SNAFU become FUBAR, the Vietnam War's acronym for “Fucked Up Beyond All Recognition.”
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NOW THE PROMISED randomness:
Assuming
reasonably long lives, it seems that as we age toward the grave, we
become ever more brutally honest with ourselves. That's when we discover
savoring our memories of love is a helluva lot more rewarding than
remembering our professional triumphs. (Scribbled on the back of a
grocery list while waiting in a Fred Meyer checkout line, probably in
2010.)
*
FiboNazi
numbers: mathematical data the Nazis (whether followers of Hitler, Ayn
Rand or both), publish to support the Big Lies that conceal the ruinous
and often deadly consequences of their policies. (Sometime in 2014, with
apologies to Leonardo Fibonacci.)
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The
greatest barrier to combating the U.S. plague of moral imbecility is
the lack of a suitably magnetic role model. (Jotted on an index-card
sometime in 2009, no doubt prompted by my dawning realization Barack
Obama was the most calculatedly malicious liar ever to hold the
presidency.)
*
Tacoma – a place where people pick their noses in public. (Undated, probably 2012.)
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The
lessor of two evils: a man or woman forced by poverty to lease a pair
of demon-haunted rooms in a vampire-infested slum. (Undated.)
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Social
documentary photography and photojournalism in general is ultimately
about expressing human emotion as visual geometry and the choreography
of light and darkness. That's probably why those of us who grew up in
dysfunctional families so often make the best photojournalists. Normally
in patriarchal culture, only women are taught to read and heed the
nuances of nonverbal language, but in the hurtful and potentially deadly
miasma of familial dysfunction, that skill is vital for survival
regardless of one's gender. (Undated, probably 2010.)
*
For
a girl-child or a woman, any patriarchal family is definitively
dysfunctional. (An epiphany while typing the above, 7 June 2015.)
*
“You're
not allowed to be yourself, so you try to be someone else, even if you
gotta go schizo to do it.” (Said by a bus rider as he disembarked at a
Pierce County mental hospital, 30 June 2012.)
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“Another
goddamn public-disclosure document written in the incomprehensibly
turgid language Ruling Class academics use to ensure their work remains
obscure.” (Undated, probably 2011, the identity of the document in
question irrelevant because the judgment is so broadly applicable.)
*
Metro
Gnome – an invisible creature who lurks on Seattle buses, making its
presence known by chronic disruption of schedules. (Undated.)
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We must make peace with Mother Nature lest she make war with us. (Undated).
*
Old men who become enchanted by music often do so because it is only way they will ever again hear a beautiful woman murmur in their ears. (24 August 2013.)
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In
the old days, before the media monopolies took over, daily newspaper
newsrooms were refuges for bright and rebellious people from the Working
Class and the declassé, and we who became journalists did so with the proud and certain knowledge our reporting could improve the human condition.
Now
though the only people allowed to report the news are the pampered sons
and daughters of the Ruling Class – those who feel it their duty to
protect the status quo – that is, if they ever pass beyond
self-obsession to consider duty at all. (Undated, probably 2011 after
reading an especially biased report on the Occupy Movement.)
*
“All
the adolescent boys of my generation had Circle-J races – sitting in a
circle in the woods or a barn or someplace jacking off. The object was
to see who could orgasm the fastest, who could shoot their load the
furthest and who could produce the most come. Ever since I heard of
that, I've wondered if it's why so many men have premature
ejaculations.” (Anonymous female elder c. 2014.)
*
“Her
boyfriend bought her a cell phone. Now he's jealous. He thinks she
loves the phone more than she loves him.” (Conversation between two
teenage girls on a bus, 28 July 2013.)
*
“Apropos brevity, nothing is more minimalist than a blank page.” (Note to another writer, context forgotten, 2012.)
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Transit
therapy – riding the bus all day and talking to one's self or to
imaginary companions – that's our new national mental-health program.
(13 September 2013)
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If
we are all how the Deity experiences herself, why are so many of us so
metaphysically challenged? (During a bus ride; undated.)
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We each combat sordidness in our own way. (April 2015.)
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I
can think of no better conclusion for this column than a heartfelt
thank-you note to Thais Smedley, another of the women who so profoundly
influenced my life.
In
popular fiction one's initiation into manhood typically begins with the
loss of one's virginity, often to an older woman. But I had lost my
virginity five years earlier to a girl my own age, and the initiation
you granted me that unforgettable summer afternoon in 1959 – you with
your white blouse and white shorts and your wondrous mane of raven hair –
was to intellectual manhood instead.
You invited me into the cool of your light and airy basement apartment there on 12th
Street by the University of Tennessee, you graciously opened a can of
Campbell's beef vegetable soup, heated it, poured it into a bowl and
indicated I should eat it all. Obviously I was hungry. In fact I was too
impoverished to afford even the 50-cent lunch in the student center,
and somehow you sensed my need but were not offended by it, and we
talked as I wolfed down the soup and for a few minutes afterward. Then
you gave me a forbidden book, saying you thought its contents might
speak to my mind and spirit, and you gently sent me on my way.
The book was Allen Ginsberg's Howl and Other Poems,
and – just as you suspected – it began a process that changed my life,
giving me a glimpse of the true power of language and helping break my
writing free of the journalistic constraints I would eventually
recognize as an especially insidious form of censorship. (From notes on
scrap paper, December 2011, after awakening from a dream about the
real-life episode described herein.)
Now in my 75th
year, I dearly hope you, Thais, will somehow see this message and know
the depth of gratitude with which I have always remembered our brief
encounter. Thank you, Thais; for just a moment you embodied the Muse.
Thank you indeed. I wish you the very best one's advancing years can
offer: sustained health and deepening contentment with the life you
lived.
LB/1-7 June 2015
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